fst: the first day of my life (Jun/Aiba)

[faded_lace]

So, I have a bit of down time now that classes are done (today was the last day!) and finals haven't started up yet, and since I enjoy music and mixes and graphics, I made a new FST! It's for my current otp, because they're really freaking cute and I love them. XD;

So yes! Without further ado, enjoy randomly the second fanmix of the week!





the first day of my life
an 相葉雅紀 x 松本潤 fanmix

① ❝ suddenly i see ❞ (kt tunstall)

Her face is a map of the world, is a map of the world
You can see she's a beautiful girl, she's a beautiful girl
And everything around her is a silver pool of light
The people who surround her feel the benefit of it
It makes you calm
She holds you captivated in her palm

Suddenly I see
This is what I wanna be.

② ❝ i want to hold your hand ❞ (the beatles)

And when I touch you I feel happy inside
It's such a feeling that my love
I can't hide, I can't hide, I can't hide

③ ❝ wind ❞ (akeboshi)

Don't try to look so wise
Don't cry 'cause you're so right
Don't dry with fakes or fears
'Cause you will hate yourself in the end

You say, dreams are dreams
I ain't gonna play the fool anymore
You say, 'cause I still got my soul

④ ❝ umbrella ❞ (all time low)

You have my heart
And we'll never be worlds apart
Maybe in magazines
But you'll still be my star

Baby cause in the dark
You can't see shiny cars
And that's when you need me there
With you I'll always share
Because

When the sun shines, we'll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be a friend
Took an oath, I'ma stick it out till the end

⑤ ❝ some days ❞ (aselin debison)

Some days I feel sad and lonely
Some days I feel fine
Some days the clock just ticks too slowly
And I wish away my time, I wish away my time

But when you come to me
I realize how wonderful my life can be.
With you...You and me.

⑥ ❝ kids in america ❞ (cascada)

Come closer, honey that's better
Got to get a brand new experience
Feeling right
Oh don't try to stop baby, hold me tight

Outside a new day is dawning.
Outside Suburbia's sprawling everywhere.
I don't want to go baby.

⑦ ❝ friendship ❞ (ninomiya kazunari)

How many miracles must have come together, for us to meet like this?
I'm so shy I can't say it, but I'm shouting it in my heart - "Thank you always"

⑧ ❝ you get me ❞ (michelle branch)

You get me
When nobody understands
You come and hold my hand, baby
You get me
You look inside my wild mind
Never knowing what you'll find
Still you want me all the time
Yeah, you do
'Cause you get me

⑨ ❝ chasing cars ❞ (snow patrol)
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

⑩ ❝ home ❞ (vanessa carlton)

For me it's a glance and the smile on your face,
The touch of your hands, an honest embrace
For where I lay it's you I keep,
This changing world I fall asleep
With you all I know is I'm coming home

⑪ ❝ the first day of my life ❞ (bright eyes)

Yours is the first face that I saw
I Think I was blind before I met you
I don't know where I am
I don't know where I've been
But I know where I want to go
So I thought I'd let you know
That these things take forever
I especially am slow
But I realized that I need you
And I wondered if I could come home

Comments

[ltgmars.livejournal.com]

I SEE IT IS TIME TO DISCUSS ARASHI FANDOM PARTICULARS.

[faded-lace.livejournal.com]

Woah hello there. XD;;; Well, then, I've given away my favourite pairing. What about you?

[ltgmars.livejournal.com]

(see icon)

Favorite member?

[faded-lace.livejournal.com]

Huh! That's interesting; I have to say, that's one pairing that I've never really thought much about. Want to show me the light? XD; Or, you know, rant/link images/whatever? I'm curious :D

Ohno is my overall favourite, but I'm going through a phase where I really like Jun right now (or maybe I'll stick with him, who knows. XD;). What about you?

[ltgmars.livejournal.com]

I think unfortunately general fandom's portrayal of them is caricaturistic and unfair to them and their relationship. Kaze Trio's all close in a certain way (and I love them as a group and all of the pairings and friendships within it), but I feel like there's a kind of special affection behind the professional admiration that Jun and Nino have for each other. They're the youngest two, only a couple of months apart, so there's already that link there. But they both approach work in really, really distinct and really professional ways -- Jun with his innovation and passion and heart, and Nino with his unfailing objectivity and almost behind-the-scenes, critical eye. And they both recognize what the other brings to the group because of the ways they interact with the other members and with the idea of the job itself and what it means to be an idol. That real, deep respect they have for each other in their shared space (unlike how everyone respects Sho for being a newscaster or Ohno for his art) is unique to them. I also do feel like they tease and jab, as all of the members do, but there's something so special about the way they do it because only Nino can get away with teasing Jun a certain way, and vice versa. I... can't really explain it well (that "special certain way"), but it's there. Oh, and they both like to tease and get handsy with Ohno most. That's cute. XD (Ohmiya was my former OTP, and Ohmatsumiya is my OT3, for the record~)

I honestly used to really hate Jun, kind of on principle (because so many people are Jun-baited, and I kind of instinctively repelled that idea), so I found [see icon] to fangirl, and he's been (and will be) my favorite for as long as I've been (as long as I am) in fandom.

[faded-lace.livejournal.com]

Hmm... that's really interesting. I really see what you mean on a lot of those points, but I guess I never thought so much about it. In Kaze Trio, I've enjoyed Nino and Aiba's friendship and Aiba and Jun's relationship, be it what it may, but honestly... maybe it's because I like Nino least of the group or maybe it's some other reason, but I just never really gave it thought. In regards to the end there, really love Ohmiya a whole lot, but I find it really hard to write them because you have to find that line between fanservice and reality, and sometimes, defining that is too hard for me personally. I have to say that I'm a bit of a fan of Jun→Ohno in some way or another, as well... so I guess we have some of that in common? I just really love Jun with Aiba a heck of a lot. XD; But, I definitely couldn't agree more with the fact that fandom caricaturizes them... all of them, really, but I suppose that's what you get in any RPS fandom. XD;

That's amazing-- that's exactly how I felt for a really long time. It drove me crazy that every fangirl on the face of the earth thought that ~*~MatsuJun~*~ was the sexiest man on the planet because 1) I didn't think he was that sexy, 2) he seemed sort of full of himself, and 3) it seemed like more of a fan than people honestly liking him. I went into Arashi fandom with my mind made up not to like him, which is why it's sort of awesome that I'm totally won over by him now, I think. Who knows, maybe he'll become my favourite. XD;

So... favourite songs? Favourite dramas? Favourite friendships? I feel like the possibilities are endless. XD;

[ltgmars.livejournal.com]

Funky! Nino's always been my favorite so I've always paid attention to him (and his various ships accordingly), so I guess that's why my OTPs have been what they were and are. But it took me a while to start paying attention to Aiba because he didn't really stand out for me (which is so stupid -- I was so blind! -- because Aiba is just sunshiny and gorgeous). But now that I kind of adore him, a lot of his ships have jumped up in my ranking. Funny how that works out, eh? XD

Ohmiya was my first OTP (and was until I started RPing Matsumiya), and while there's a lot of useless fanservice to slog through, there is a real, quiet affection they have for each other. They're alike in a lot of ways -- silly and playful and idiotic -- and they bring that out in each other, and they support each other in a really cozy kind of give-and-take. Fandom either loves Ohmiya for the fanservice or hates them (... for the fanservice), but I think it's easy enough to dig past that and kind of get to the heart of who they are as people and why they get along, why they lean on each other, why Taka and Yuuji give birth to baseballs together, etc. The point, I suppose, is that I started off with Ohmiya fic, and since they were my OTP for such a long time and I only wrote so much fic, it's what makes up most of my archive. But people seem to like how I write Ohmiya, so if you're at all interested... (Reccing herself, what a classy broad.)

We totally did have the same experience with Jun. I didn't really have any particular reasons to hate on him except that I didn't want to be one of the fangirls with him as my favorite, so I spent a good year and a half maybe hating on him ruthlessly. It was kind of fun, actually, just ripping him apart on stupid shit because I could. XD But once you kind of figure out what kind of person he is and how earnest and hardworking he is and how passionate he is about everything, then you can't but respect and love him a little. And in recent years he's really been kind of growing into himself and becoming more comfortable with being his silly, goofy self on camera, so that's been nice to see. It's always easy to like someone who likes himself, and unfortunately I think he was pretty slow in that department, assumed "DoS"/Domyouji characteristics aside.

For the record, my member ranking is:
1. Nino
2. Ohno (we haven't touched much on him, but he's so strange and adorable)
3. Jun
4. Aiba
5. Sho

Favorite song is [see icon] (ahaha I have an icon for everything, don't I?), though my favorite PV is "truth" because Maou hair and a chamber orchestra and red + black = unnnfff dear god. Second favorite song is "Step and Go", third favorite is "Monster"... and I don't really think past that. Favorite older song is "Kotoba Yori Taisetsu na Mono".

Favorite drama is Yamada Tarou Monogatari (my hands down number one happy place, guaranteed to lift my spirits no matter what), followed by Stand Up!! (though I think Stand Up!! is the better drama of the two, but it isn't as happy-making for me so it's a very slight second) and Maou.

I can't say that I have a favorite friendship. I love them all. XD Though I will say that a friendship that I like way more than its romantic counterpart is Sakuraiba. Though I don't really have any dislikes there, either.

(panting) Your turn.

[1/2]

[faded-lace.livejournal.com]

Aww, yeah, I totally understand about Aiba. I was sort of the same way-- my best friend has always loved Aiba from the start, but I didn't get it and I thought he was sort of annoying and his voice was weird. But then he grew on me intensely as I began to see more of him, and I still don't think I can watch the AAA performance of Hello Goodbye without dying a little or the cuteness. XD; I really love Aiba a lot. But yeah, I guess... Ohno's always been my favourite, so I'm definitely more inclined to lean towards pairings with him. I guess I've never been able to see the draw of Nino-- I like him a lot with Ohno and with Aiba, because I can see his heart really come out, but he's so... makezugirai and conniving and not very considerate on the outside a lot of the time that it really just doesn't attract me. I don't know. XD;;

I totally agree, just, for me, it's really hard to pick it apart when I'm trying to write them. I love them, I love seeing them together, especially when they seem candid and truly happy together, or when they're doing something stupid and unflattering together. I think it's easier for me to see and appreciate what they really are together than to put it into words, in the end. But I will definitely read your fic when I get the moment-- I do think part of my problem is that I haven't had enough time when I haven't been bogged down by a ton of school work, joys of the Bi-Co and all that. XD;

I also used to be incredibly mean to Jun for no reason XD;;; But strangely, the things I used to make fun of a lot, especially the superficial things like his eyebrows and his horrible hair, have grown on me a lot. Such is life, I suppose? But yes, yes, totally yes to everything you said there. I guess one reason why I like he and Aiba together is because they have that passion together, that love and the way they put their all into things, and seeing them both cry at conerts, or when they are being genuine together, I find it really amazing. And... that's what I really like about Jun, too. I really love seeing him be okay with being himself, which, for someone with a reputation and fanbase like he has, must be hard, but seeing the Jun who's waking Arashi up at 5 am in 2002 come out again in 2011 is a really wonderful experience for me, and it makes me love him more and more. (You're so much more eloquent than I am, I'm sorry!)

If I had to rank, I feel like it would be something like:
1. Ohno
2. Jun
3. Aiba and Sho
4. Nino

I know that's cheating a bit since I ranked two together, but honestly, I love them so much that it's hard to differentiate. And I love them both at different times and for different reasons, so you'll have to forgive me for my indecisiveness.... XD;

[2/2]

[faded-lace.livejournal.com]

Ahh, Happiness is so much love. I could watch that PV over and over and over again. XD; I think it may be my favourite PV, though Aozora Pedal is up there in terms of cute Arashi moments. As for dance, I'm really in love with the Lotus PV right now, and Monster as well (dance is one of my majors, so forgive me. XD;) For old songs... I really like the Kansha Kangeki video XD; And the Hadashi no Mirai one, too. And Hero... wow I suck at making decisions. XD; Just for listening to, my favourite songs are probably Sakura Sake, Rock You, 5x10, Troublemaker, and Monster... and then in terms of solos, Magical Song, Take Me Faraway, Niji, Come Back to Me, and Hello Goodbye... I SUCK AT MAKING CHOICES, DAMMIT.

I have to admit I haven't had much time to watch dramas with school, but Maou is definitely my favourite (and I love truth too!), closely followed by The Quiz Show. I tend to like the suspense/revenge brand of drama, as is probably obvious. XD;;;

I'm really a fan of like... non-sexual love, I guess? Which is a really awkward way to put it, but I love fics or scenarious involving them loving one another in a not-romantic but not-platonic sort of way. XD; Nino and Aiba is a particular example of one that I find adorable, since they've been friends for so long, and I think that's really where it falls for me with Jun and Nino, too. And I agree about Sakuraiba, as well... but yeah, it's really hard to dislike much about Arashi. XD;;;

Sorry I've not been as eloquent as you've been! I guess that's what I get for replying at 2:50 am. XD; Do you have any other awesome favourites? Favourite movie with all the Arashi members in it? Favourite pics? Favourite TV show episode? XD;;; I'm basically just super excited to hear anything~ :3

Re: [2/2]

[ltgmars.livejournal.com]

Heh, I get that, honestly. About Nino. He can be an asshole sometimes, and he's not shy about it. But he's also so unlike 99% of idols in the way he thinks and approaches work, and he understands how frustrating and self-contradictory he is, and I think balled up inside a tiny man of endless talent and extraordinary range and untapped creativity is a mix between a wise but jaded old man and an immature little kid, and it's this... I don't know. There's this raw humanity about him that's really wonderful and captivating. He teases because he loves, he pushes away and is cold and calculating because that's how he's learned to look at life (and sometimes I think about how he was hardcore bullied as a kid and it makes my heart sink a little), but before and after everything else, he loves what he does, and he loves Arashi. And I can't help but find a lot of love in my heart for him.

I'll say right now that whenever I start to feel like I'm forgetting about Aiba (almost out of habit, because he just doesn't enter my consciousness that often), all I have to do is think about him crying on TV because he loves Arashi, or singing his brains out at a concert. Concert Aiba fucking shines for me. So I can totally see that kind of... dual passion thing working for Jun/Aiba, because when they love, they love like they mean it. They all do, really, but I can see it bursting from those two in particular in a really tangible way.

"Aozora Pedal"! Dingdingding~ Did you know! That Nino came up with the story for that one? :3.v I love his mind. Though ahaha I totally love that your list is, like, 50 songs long. ♥

Ahh, The Quiz Show. Man, the crying in the last episode. That was some ugly crying. XD But Yoko! I also have a huge old thing for Kanjani8, so if you want to venture into those dark waters, do let me know~

Non-sexual love! That's interesting. Kind of, like... closer-than-family but not-so-close-I-want-to-bone-you love? That's all over Arashi. I really love that about them. And yeah, there's not much to dislike here.

I was eloquent only because I'm three hours behind you. :P I'm going to have to think on this more, and these comments are getting unmanageably long, so maybe we can save more bits for our next Arashi Q&A yaritori. XD

Re: [2/2]

[faded-lace.livejournal.com]

Nino is definitely an incredibly talented man, and I'm always really impressed by his acting and his songwriting and everything, but I guess the way he acts on a day to day basis just sits wrong with me. It's not that I sit down and analyze him and think "man he's an asshole," it's more that it's my gut reaction. There are definitely times when I really, really like him, and the times when I really don't like him are few, but he's just never really done it for me. I think just the way he acts towards the others, even teasingly, sometimes gets under my skin a little, like when they lose events at VSA or when they're not so good at something on shukudai... and I also really dislike children, so maybe there's some overlap there. XD;; I... had no idea he was bullied as a kid, though, that's really terrible. I have a lot of friends who really love Nino and they all get on my case for not liking him, so maybe I'll start to see what it is as time goes on.

I agree completely. Aiba in concert really is amazing, and I don't think I can watch him in any given concert without getting to the verge of tears myself when he's moved, or completely overflowing with love for him when he's happy. He really gives everything his all, and in a fandom where, I feel like, there's a lot of reading between the lines that has to go on, seeing Aiba who puts everything out there and wears his heart on his sleeve and cries on national TV is just really really gorgeous. And yeah, that's really why I like them together. Because they both really love passionately, whether it's their work or their music or their fellow members, and seeing them both cry in concert is adorable. And especially since Jun can be kind of a tsundere some of the time while Aiba's always very open about everything, I feel like it works. Their love for everything they do is so intense that their love for one another is just... really adorable to me.

Wait really? XD Nino is totally my hero, in that case. I love the Aozora Pedal PV to bits. XD; And yeah, sorry I suck at picking |D;;; I have a lot of member solos that I really like, but I feel like they don't count in the same category as songs with everyone... XD;;; And then there are so many songs I love for their PVs... so yes basically I suck at picking. XD;

It makes me laugh really hard that that's the first thing you think about with the quiz show, but god yes. XD;;; Yoko was really really gross in that episode (I don't remember Sho being quite so bad? XD;) but setting that aside... I really liked that show. Sho was really awesome in it, and I do have to admit that I, being a stereotypical fangirl, enjoyed all of the scenes in Kamiyama's room with Honma yelling at him and whatnot. XD; and okay, I'll keep that in mind! XD;

I really fail at explaining it, sorry, but yeah. I feel like... it's easy to want to have sex with someone, and it's easy to love someone casually, but it's more like... the point of it is that they really, really love that person with all of their heart, and if sex comes then that's fine and it won't have an impact on their friendship, but it's not the point. It's like... deeper than romantic-let's-go-to-a-candelight-dinner sort of love. I know that really doesn't make a lot of sense, but I feel like within Arashi there's a lot of stronger-than-friendship love in every which direction and I really love that about them.

Aww, okay. XD; That is true in terms of length... until next time, then? XD;

[yomimashou.livejournal.com]

♥ ♥ ♥

This pairing is so much love, I can't even deal. Also, apparently Wind will follow me into every fandom ever? XD

Also, I'm in love with the covers~ BABIES. HEAD NUZZLE. JUN'S CAPTIVATED EXPRESSION.

[faded-lace.livejournal.com]

They are so much love *___* I want to put them in my pocket and take them home with me forever. And... apparently so XD;

Aww, yay! I loved making them and I'm pretty pleased with them. Jun and Aiba are just too adorable for words.

[kumakun4077.livejournal.com]

lol when I clicked on your thing to see what it was I was like "eh pnish? I thought this was an arashi thing?" but then I saw your name and then it was like ohhhh ok XD...sorry this has nothing to do with your post it just caught me by surprise and made me laugh ^^

[faded-lace.livejournal.com]

^^; sorry for the confusion.

[kumakun4077.livejournal.com]

lol no it made me laugh ^^ my favorite pairing is ohmiya or anyone/nino I don't know why but if it's someone/nino I can read it and enjoy it ^^ I do also like junba though..I miss watching them on shukudai alot T^T

Love

[thoroughlynerdy.livejournal.com]

Hi! I just came across this mix while checking the Junba group and I have to say that it is completely appropriate. I also completely love the fact that you included Bright Eyes, because Conor Oberst is a lyrical genius who should be dissected and studied once he dies. This mix is officially love.

Re: Love

[faded-lace.livejournal.com]

Wow, thank you so much! I'm really glad you think so~

[lover-youshould.livejournal.com]

Aaaahhhh this is so great!! Every time I look at your layout I go "tee hee I love that song," and now that I see it on here, yes, yes, it is so perfectly Modelpair. :D This whole thing is great, oh man. <3

[faded-lace.livejournal.com]

Aw yay! I secretly (or not-so-secretly) love Michelle Branch and never got over her after 7th grade XD; I'm glad you think it's appropriate; all those sappy songs make me think of them so much... XD;;