素直な気持ち伝えるのさ

I am SO SORE. I took class today, but I shouldn't be THAT out of shape. Apparently, I am, though, and oh god, is walking going to be sad tomorrow. @___@ I already hurt all over.

I also auditioned for my piece in the spring gala today. It went... interestingly, to say the least. Here's to hoping everything works out @____@;;

AHHH I'm not at all packed for Japan and it's making me stress all of a sudden. WHERE DID ALL THE TIME GO??

But, on the bright side, I made some new *pnish* desktops for myself and yomimashou, and I made a Tuti and Nagayan background for Parvati (the blackberry) :3 How did I fall so much in love with *pnish* recently? XD;

I hate April first. XO I'm so naive. Like, EVERYONE EVER tricked me. :P

I've been meaning to post for a while... but I've been so busy with Anime Boston coming up. Three cons in one year is a lot for me... and I'm going to go broke. -___-; But I'm looking forward to it... even if I'm NOT looking forward to the 6 hour drive. XO

In other news, the new Modern 3 teacher teaches Horton. I hurt ALL FUCKING OVER. But at the same time, since I did Horton at home, I have to think a lot less and kind of enjoy it. And I think it's good for Bryn Mawr modern dancers who haven't had Horton and aren't used to the level of technique and discipline it requires. Still. I'm so fucking sore.

There was something else I wanted to say, but I forget. :P

I kept my computer running all night to do it, but,

I managed to download Dream Live 6th!

That being said, I'm attempting to download the backstage now. Fingers crossed, and then after that I'll do the adlibs and then I'll be done because I already downloaded the Shiten B stuff ddl, yays!

And of course, once something works for me on torrent, I get cocky and try to do more, so I'm also attempting to download another episode of YYH. Apparently, I have 11 peers, but I'm only downloading from one of them. I don't know why this is, but I kind of hate torrents. x____X;

Off to work~ Sunshine's trying to talk Scary into paying me some minimal amount for this, yay~

Dress rehearsal and performance went off without a hitch! Everything went perfectly fine, and we actually had to start late because so many people were buying tickets at the door. Of course, certain *cough* people were "injured" and Elaine was bitchy when she was hungry and gave me that "I'm showing off because I know I'm better than you" look when she was next to the wing in Green Grove, but, really, generally, it was a good first show.

The program is lovely, and I got credit for the art, and, even more exciting, I got to be on headset for stage left! I'm "moving up in the word," as Header put it. It's really funny listening to the random conversation of the guys who do lighting and sound, and Sunch, of course.

I got my part of the econ project and the machi project out of the way for now... So I'm relatively stress-free for the duration of being at home. I get to watch the show tomorrow, and to eat some red meat, whooooo. I'm planning on trying to write some Dirty Pair tonight, but I realized that it's a lot harder for me to write when I'm at home because I end up getting distracted by the TV. XD;;

My email works again, in consolation. I'm starting to get better. My throat was un-hoarse enough that I could sing along with TeniMyu in the car on the way to the theatre. XD;

I feel mushy right now. I just read a lot of well-written fanfiction, which probably has something to do with it, but like... I dunno. Like emo-scene-in-a-chick-flick mushy. There's an unbelievable view from my window right now; it was raining hard and abruptly stopped, the sun is really bright mid sky to the west, and behind the silhouette of the Great Hall and the clock tower, the sky is brilliant blue. The campus is still overshadowed with rain clouds; on the cherry trees right outside my window, hints of pink are blossoming at the tips of the branches. When I sit on the window seat, I feel like I am in one of those emo scenes, only I have nothing, really, to be emo about. It's sad when I envy anime characters for particular elements of their lives. In the words of our own dear Atobe-sama, "suteki na romansu shitai..."

You know, I have a lot of favourite characters in Prince of Tennis, but, I've realized, Gakuto really is my very favourite. There's just something about him that I love deeply from the bottom of my heart; I empathize with him, on some level. There's something about his brashness, his hot-temperedness... I don't know. I love Atobe because he's fabulous, I love Ryoma because he's a snotty little brat, I love Eiji because he's sweet and insecure, I love Mizuki because he's a conniving bitch... But honestly, there's just something about sweet, stupid little Gakuto that I love the most.

I mean... I haven't been in fandom long enough to know if I fit in with others' ideas a lot (and Gakuto isn't so popular, so far as I can tell, to begin with), but my headcanon for Gakuto has shaped up rather distinctly as of recently, and my personal Gakuto needs to be needed. Like Hazel, I guess, if you want to draw the comparison to my Saiyuki love (and now that I think about it, it's a little disturbing, really), there's just something about the pathetic ones that I like. But, then again, that's just my personal headcanon. I kind of like the fact that, with Prince of Tennis, you have a lot of room for headcanon, really. I mean, I love Minekura to bits, and she's so talented and amazing and in Saiyuki, there is and there isn't and it's up to the reader to discern and she drops so many subtle hints and the characters are who they are, and I love analyzing Minekura's manga like the lit nerd I am. But there's something appealing about Konomi's boys, in that, there's just so many of them, not all of them can be delved into in canon. With characters like Gakuto (or most rivals, honestly) you have a lot of room for interpretation. Konomi gives you the character bios and that's it, you're on your own. And though I love lit, I love being creative, I think, even more.

( My headcanon for Gakuto, for those who care to look )

Outside of my fandom-related ramblings... this weekend, I'm heading back to good old DE for a weekend of DDC stress! Scary volunteered me to work backstage without asking first, and so I'll be doing the spawn-of-Scary-Mary act this weekend (I think I need a nickname, too, but nothing rhymes or alliterates nicely...) I want the chance to write... I just want to write a lot this weekend. I have to work on various school-related things, but I'd like to pound out at least one more bit of OTJN as well as a one-shot, at least... I don't know if it'll happen, but. And being around the studio or the theatre makes me want to dance, and to start working on Make You Free, specifically... Alas.

...I really want to cosplay Gakuto sometime. I mean, I'm really excited to (possibly? Have we decided on this?) be Mizuki this summer, don't get me wrong. I just really want to be Gakuto someday. And, I mean, by normal person standards, I'm flexible, and I'm short, so... how could I go wrong? XD;

Uh... in other news, in Japanese today, Tiina announced that we were like the Ichinen Trio... and somehow, she became Horio, I became Kachiro, and a very tired, unobliging britkit27 became Katsuo. XD;;; We were singing Kounai Ranking and stuff. XD;;; We're so cool.

Lastly, this song is entirely filled with Royal Pair. Seriously, britkit27, how can you not see it?

GAAHH tech week, so much work to do... I just need to suck it up and bust through it all, I guess.

Still.

UGGGGH.

At least my gifts should cheer me up... Thanks, family/girlfriend~ ♥ Love you all!

♪ Hoooooooooooooome, we're comin' hoooooome again ♪

Ahem. That is to say, I'm going home today! My family is going to pick me up in like... 45 minutes 8D Because wellness got canceled... no rape whistle for me u____u But who cares, break is officially started for me ("after lass class Friday" lulz) and I'm going home again!

Actually... for the record... I'm okay with it here. I miss people, but I like it here. It'll be nice to be home, but I have no problems with being here at Bryn Mawr, either. XD;;;;; Oh Bryn Mawr. How I ♥ thee.

Just finished my Japanese test... いもうとがいますか。　はい、いもうとがいます。なまえわ劉龍女です。　ああ、そうですか！ And of course, my favourite: しゅうまつになにをしょましたか。　デートをしました！ Maybe that's not exactly a perfect description, but... whatever! Did my Chinese posting, too... So I'm done for today! Just have to write my essay and read Xiyouji over break... haha.

As for Ange's story, it's at 1/6(?) chapters and I'm partway through part 2... Hopefully I can get it done over break!!

And I promise. There will be SaiyuMyu icons SOMETIME in the near-ish future.

First Nutcracker rehearsal is あした! Now... where are my character shoes...?

[EDIT] DAMNIT! I was totally tempted to buy that Rock'n'Dolless doujin (for those who don't know, Rock'n'Dolless is a doujinshi circle who do FMA doujin) that was at NYAF but I decided against it and now I find out it was super rare. WTF?! *beats self* Oh well... There's always Otakon...

This is just ridiculous.

What in hell's name can she possibly be thinking? This is ludicrous.

I'm incensed.

Changed my userpics... now I have 2 that I made... XD; Why do I so dislike icons I made myself? Anyway, for my default, I've chosen myself my favourite of the Princess Tutu icons I made... for some reason, I find this picture really aesthetically pleasing, and like, artistically interesting. As for my "love" icon, I chose KuboToki, because I was getting tired of my old one, and because I wanted one that was more generic, so I could use it for other stuff, too. Like Minekurafag gay stuff. (ttly going to use that until it catches on... XD;;) Is it sad, though, that I wanted to use one of the ones of sapling and greyfinch instead? Thought that might be a little weird, though, so I didn't... still, I might end up doing it, anyway. I really like the way a lot of those came out. XD;

Forgot to mention, as a parting gift, chiachiaamichan gave me a really cute amigurumi Hazel! He's got a little hat and everything. I may post pictures later, if I feel the need... but for now, just know that he's adorable.

Argh... So much shit to do, so little time. I hope if I just get my packing done, my parentals will get off my case and not make me do so much in the cleaning my room department... ahfishdakhkjasdhaskdhajkdaskdsakdhasdasjkd.

Soon, I'll be at college. I'm missing everyone... but it helps that 9kinds and storm_of_62 will be there with me. And my roommate, webeki, is like, the awesome-est roommate for which one could ask. I'm really very much looking forward to sharing a room with her, and, in general, am not stressed about much past the dance auditions on Monday. I guess I oughta get my ass to the studio tomorrow and take that class... if I can. @_____@;; So busy.

Um... I have no appropriate emo/nostalgic/worried/whatever song lyrics to post, so I'll leave you with a promise of fic and/or icons sometime in the near future. I also plan to get back on my potential 100, whenever I can... but I have some more extraneous tutu images to use, as well, and I hope to write some more Minekura fic, soon. I want Tokyopop to release Bus Gamer, already. XP

...now I'm just rambling. It's 2 am. Time for this kitten to get herself to bed.

Got my grades in the mail :D

Human Sexuality - Exam: 95 ☆ Final Grade: 95
Digital Photography - Exam: 98 ☆ Final Grade: 95
Latin - Exam: exempt ☆ Final Grade: 97
Physics - Exam: 95 ☆ Final Grade: 90
Creative Writing - Exam: 98 ☆ Final Grade: 99
Science Fiction - Exam: 100 ☆ Final Grade: 98
AP Lit - Exam: exempt ☆ Final Grade: 94
AP Calc - Exam: exempt ☆ Final Grade: 94
Senior Research - 97

Overall, I'm really happy. My report card didn't show the 113 that I had for the fourth quarter in Calc XD;; But how the hell did I get a 95 on the Physics final?! I was ELATED. Also, Clarke gave us 100 on our final? ARE YOU KIDDING? I was so happy.

In other news, workshop is KILLING me. My muscles from the waist down are so sore I can barely move! I have a little solo in the dance, though. It's nice being on top! ♡